It is hard for me to write this entry, i cannot bare it any more, for many years have i kept this secret hidden in my heart tell me how can i rip that part out and cast it away? you do not know the desperate need to be healed, to forget, to live a normal life, i deserve to laugh once in a while, i deserve to dream of happy things, i deserve to hope......
I HATE HIM! even now as he rots in his grave his wounds on my body are still bleeding, how can i heal? how? I HATE HIM! if i could i would kill him again and again and again, slit his throat.
HOW DARE HE STEALS MY CHILDHOOD! I WANT IT BACK! i want to live my life free from this pain, free from him, free from the memories..i want...i want.....
Help me God, give me some of your strength.
Blessed be,
Poena.
I HATE HIM! even now as he rots in his grave his wounds on my body are still bleeding, how can i heal? how? I HATE HIM! if i could i would kill him again and again and again, slit his throat.
HOW DARE HE STEALS MY CHILDHOOD! I WANT IT BACK! i want to live my life free from this pain, free from him, free from the memories..i want...i want.....
Help me God, give me some of your strength.
Blessed be,
Poena.
2 comments:
Anger is not the answer here, I at least know that much.
I read your piece on Kaleidoscope, IF you are doing what you state then you will be caught eventually, the system is a system for a reason.
Surely there must be some advice or professional help you can get?
I'm quite at a loss of what to say really........my apologies
Azrael: Anger is something that i cannot control anymore, frankly i reached a point where i could not care less what happens to me so i welcome whatever fate throws into my path i will not fight nor resist..i am just too tired. Thank you for your comment.
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